From House Wife To Film Maker

(The How to Kick a cold is further down in second paragraph, there’s a story that surrounds it, so story first )

Yesterday I woke up and I had post nasal drip. My first thought was, this is a sign of inner crying. Information drawn from Louise Hay’s book: You Can Heal Your Life. A terrific book about how physical symptoms can tell us about our emotional state. How they are interwoven and how healing emotions can bring physical healing or accelerate physical healing as well. Initially I wondered to myself, what am I crying about? But didn’t give it much more thought than that, the kids were here, we were interacting, had work to get to… Then a a couple hours later I remembered that today marks the 21st anniversary of our daughter/sister to my kids, Tiffany dying.

21, a very big mile marker. Right up there with turning 18. Now I will add that through time the severity of my grieving has greatly diminished. However I doubt the day will come that I don’t look back and feel sadness. I don’t remember feeling or having physical reactions last year, but this year, well what started as a trickle of mucous, by late nightfall (what is it about the sun going down?) progressed into a full blown upper respiratory gig. Box of tissues ready at my side, hot herbal teas going down: Gypsy Cold Care (Traditional Medicinals) and Peppermint along with swallowing vitamins and herbs: Red Clover, (cleanses the blood) Infection Relief (an herbal blend for infection and sickness), vitamin C, Liver Cleanse (an herbal blend to support the load of toxins on my liver), Pro Biotic, White Willow (breaks up mucus throughout body), Immune System in a Bottle (an herbal blend that supports and builds up the immune system). I’ll be feeling better soon.

And even though I’m sick, both yesterday and today I’m not doing too bad with the memories. Yesterday was a little less and I think because I had all my kids around me and had such fun with Grace. The memories are here. Tiffany’s here, I sense her presence. But I’m functioning well, just a little slower and with a little sadness. So comfort today: mashed potatoes and gravy, some brownies probably. Both foods not good for healing and recovery, need light and nutritious. But I’ll get to that tomorrow. More comfort: warm heat radiating through my apartment, shivering not allowed today, I think I’ll watch a movie, some hot cocoa. Today I’m just going for the comfort and allow myself to feel this rather than suppress. Anything suppressed hurts more and takes longer to pass in the long run.

Theresa Jane
-thankful for the time we had Tiffany, she changed my life that’s for sure

Tags: child dying, cold, daughter died, death, death of child, emotions, herb, Louise Hay

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