TwitterNov 15 2009
I've been a human blob this weekend . . .
Today I took Daniel and Caleb and went to Target and Walmart. Got some groceries. Bought a set of drapes for two windows to try and keep the place warmer this year. And rambled aimlessly around both stores. Came back here and we ate pizza. The el cheapo one from a pizza place whose name I can’t think how to spell. $5 for a medium. Beat cooking. Then I ambled around the internet checking things. Read some blogs. But in general zilch got done. I have worked 16-17 hour days for right about 3 months. I’m realizing that this has caught up with me. I have the weekend to point to as evident. I can’t say where I’ve done much of anything since Friday. Oh, I’ve sat here at my computer, off and on. But what I’ve accomplished is teeny tiny. I just couldn’t get the engine roaring. I need slack time.
I’ll get back at it. Be digging my way through and getting lots done. But not tonight. I’ll see how I am in the morning. Maybe one more day would be good. Not for my business, but maybe for me so ultimately it will be for my business. Maybe I should knock off for the entire day tomorrow. Rather than trying to work, or pretending rather, and then not getting a thing done to speak of. Where’s the relaxing in that? Where’s the rejuvenation?
Right now I’m just sleepy. And my body is slumpy. I’m also lonely. Don’t even want to watch a movie. Since Scott wasn’t there when I took Caleb and Danial home I had the opportunity to tuck my sons into bed and hug the rest. And I”m thankful for the opportunity. Don’t get to do that much, their father, as a rule, doesn’t like me around at bedtime. Fair deal. I am there a ton otherwise.
Otherwise for me, now, I’ve already slid into my jammies. Turned my bed down. And I’m on my way there. May read. May just go to sleep. <Shrug.> Honestly deciding almost is more than I want to deal with right now. And as I type this I realize it’s moments away and I really need a decision. <Small sleepy grin> That’s all I feel like giving the thought. An LOL almost is more than I care to apply to the situation.
Night, love ya,
Theresa Jane
Oh, that made me sad. I am so sorry that you are feeling lonely. I do know that feeling all to well, I felt that while through most of my first marriage. I felt less lonely after leaving. I think you need a girlfriend day. Lunch and shopping would be nice. If I lived closer I would take you out. You deserve to have a day off and I know I am nobody special, but I give you permission. I think after all the hard work you have been doing over the last few months you deserve what they call a mental health day.
I am so happy to hear you got to tuck your kids in, that is special for all of you I’m sure.
I just want you to know I am here If you need me. Kellie
Another thing we have in common. Loneliness throughout a marriage. Ah well, life is better now, right?? I know it is for you and it is for me too because even though I get lonely it’s better. I wish you had lived closer I would have taken you up on the offer to take me out in a heart beat. Now that would have been fun!
Theresa Jane