Comments on: Let's start with Monday . . . http://fromhousewifetofilmmaker.com/2009/12/31/lets-start-with-monday/ My journey out of: 21 years as a housewife, stay at home, homeschooling mom of 8 and into one as a entrepreneur business woman/mom Thu, 20 Jan 2011 20:23:06 +0000 hourly 1 http://wordpress.org/?v=3.0 By: fromhousewifetofilmmaker http://fromhousewifetofilmmaker.com/2009/12/31/lets-start-with-monday/comment-page-1/#comment-95 fromhousewifetofilmmaker Fri, 01 Jan 2010 06:33:39 +0000 http://fromhousewifetofilmmaker.wordpress.com/?p=1341#comment-95 Well, there is pain. I won't deny that. And that's an excellent thought you raise, because I need to address it in my blog. This "pain" is no worse, and actually easier, than the years and years of pain and distress I have gone through with my parents. The years of putting up with being treated with no respect and not being heard. Being expecting to allow the ill treatment from years past to be left to me as a burden to carry and for them to ignore it. For all of my mother's psychological twisting that she did to me as a child and continues with until this day that has carried tremendous ill effects to me... "This" is taking me somewhere. This is bringing healing and this is allowing me to come out of past issues, most especially my worthlessness. I have so wanted to come out of that for most my life and now I am. I'm finally standing on my own two feet and holding my position and insisting that things change. Whether they do with my mother or not is up to her, but wherein it lies with me...I'm finally removing the chains that I have carried for most my life. As in the movie, The Christmas Carol, those chains on Bob Marley were forged in his earthly life. He carried them when he was in the flesh, he just didn't see them, he didn't have the eyes to see but when he died he did and then he had to carry them all through eternity. I'm removing them in this life as did Scrooge. It was painful for him to see and go through the experience that the ghost carried him through but he tolerated it and in the end he was set free, a new man. The same with me. Literally. This experience is taking me back in time. I'm reliving and remembering things with new eyes. And I'm able to see forward, if I don't change I will die this way. I'm getting a life. This "pain" is worth it. Any infection needs to be cleaned and boy does it hurt. But if we don't gangrene sets in and eventually kills us. If we go through the process of keeping it clean and taking the medicine, it eventually heals. I'm cleaning my infection right now. Soon the wound will be healed and I won't see it anymore. We are designed to self-heal. Body and mind. I have simply needed the "medicine" in order to do so. Thank you for your obvious love and concern, Theresa Jane Well, there is pain. I won’t deny that. And that’s an excellent thought you raise, because I need to address it in my blog. This “pain” is no worse, and actually easier, than the years and years of pain and distress I have gone through with my parents. The years of putting up with being treated with no respect and not being heard. Being expecting to allow the ill treatment from years past to be left to me as a burden to carry and for them to ignore it. For all of my mother’s psychological twisting that she did to me as a child and continues with until this day that has carried tremendous ill effects to me…

“This” is taking me somewhere. This is bringing healing and this is allowing me to come out of past issues, most especially my worthlessness. I have so wanted to come out of that for most my life and now I am. I’m finally standing on my own two feet and holding my position and insisting that things change. Whether they do with my mother or not is up to her, but wherein it lies with me…I’m finally removing the chains that I have carried for most my life. As in the movie, The Christmas Carol, those chains on Bob Marley were forged in his earthly life. He carried them when he was in the flesh, he just didn’t see them, he didn’t have the eyes to see but when he died he did and then he had to carry them all through eternity. I’m removing them in this life as did Scrooge. It was painful for him to see and go through the experience that the ghost carried him through but he tolerated it and in the end he was set free, a new man. The same with me. Literally. This experience is taking me back in time. I’m reliving and remembering things with new eyes. And I’m able to see forward, if I don’t change I will die this way. I’m getting a life. This “pain” is worth it.

Any infection needs to be cleaned and boy does it hurt. But if we don’t gangrene sets in and eventually kills us. If we go through the process of keeping it clean and taking the medicine, it eventually heals. I’m cleaning my infection right now. Soon the wound will be healed and I won’t see it anymore. We are designed to self-heal. Body and mind. I have simply needed the “medicine” in order to do so.
Thank you for your obvious love and concern,
Theresa Jane

]]> By: Kellie Sklarz http://fromhousewifetofilmmaker.com/2009/12/31/lets-start-with-monday/comment-page-1/#comment-94 Kellie Sklarz Fri, 01 Jan 2010 00:36:31 +0000 http://fromhousewifetofilmmaker.wordpress.com/?p=1341#comment-94 It is amazing what a Dad will say when he thinks he is dying. I am sure some of the things your Mom did he told her to do, but if she did things when he wasn't around it was her choice. She may never admit to anything and you will have to choose what to do about that yourself. I hope that this is really helping you, but to me it sounds like it is causing you more pain. You have suffered enough. It is amazing what a Dad will say when he thinks he is dying. I am sure some of the things your Mom did he told her to do, but if she did things when he wasn’t around it was her choice. She may never admit to anything and you will have to choose what to do about that yourself. I hope that this is really helping you, but to me it sounds like it is causing you more pain. You have suffered enough.

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