TwitterJan 11 2010
From Pandora boxes to where? . . .
So where do I go from “here”? All I wrote about in my last post. From my “demons” of Mother Hate and Unforgiveness?…
In the Steven King movie I talked about last, there was a female character who was dying a terrible death. It was made obvious that it was due to her holding on to hate. Her line: “Sometimes being a bitch is all a woman has to hold on to.”
Translation: this was what allowed her to survive.
The movie shows us that she was obviously hurt in her childhood and then in her marriage. Her “demons”, Bitterness and Hate, permeated her and in the end they devoured her with sickness and twisted her outside body into a terrible form reflecting what was inside… She wanted to die. It was the only way she knew to “kill them off” and release her from them and her awful existence.
These “demons” we/I co-exist with exact a terribly high price to allow us to live off from/hold on to them…
I want to be released from my “demons”. However I know that I don’t have to die to be released, but they have to. I can go on to live a beautiful and peaceful existence after I’ve killed off my “demons” (my issues) and replace them with “angels”. In this case “angels” of Forgiveness and Love for all people including my mother.
This is also the message of the book John Solomon wrote: Red Book and Cotton. It is the entire theme really. How to overcome the issues that keep us from “true-freedom”. The man, Nimrod, had every reason to hold on to his anger and hate, he was born and raised an African American slave. Who was treated worse than the slaves?? But in spite of his childhood and adult treatment and existence he was able to overcome and go on to live in not just the paper freedom that the government granted in his lifetime, but he was able to arrive at his true-freedom as well. By learning to love and forgive those that had been atrocious to him and his people.
To me it has been a tremendous eye opener to how I needed to live. His life story has played a very powerful role over the years to my inner healing. Because if anyone “deserved” to hold onto to their hate it would have been him. But he learned to let it go, “kill off his demons” and because he did he was able to experience true-freedom and this is the message to us that is in the book. Through his life story we learn of his pain and traumas, the horrors committed against him and were all around him and then we are shown how he learned to free himself of the anger, hate, and unforgiveness he harbored toward the white people.
The book has been inspiring. Provided me tremendous guidance and self-revelation to jerk me awake and to keep me on the path to my inner healing/True-freedom. Read it. You’ll be glad you did. Check out John’s blog too, click here, it’s based on his book and the truths that lie within.
Night, love ya,
Theresa
Good work again, Theresa! Since I can’t afford traditional or alt. therapies if they cost $, I get it all from books, movies, and personal daily practice. I wrote about forgiveness too, more as a “how to” (simple method) after reading your previous post.