TwitterMar 31 2010
Chiropractor adjustment, life adjustment, a movie: Bounty Hunter . . .
A lot has happened since I last posted. A lot of outside work with what I do to bring in the bacon. And a lot of business. Spent a lot of hours scrutinizing a document and making notes for change, improvement, and correction, more research, emails that jumped out of the research. Meetings that were productive. Assembling minutes from said meetings…Things like that.
I am happy about the progress with our business, a lot is moving forward. More behind it. More momentum to get everything launched so I/we can move from working a job to working the business as our source of income.
Had another interview with a family with two adorable 14 month old twins. They need a short term filler situation for April and May. I liked this family a lot. Glad the gig with the last family I interviewed didn’t pan out because I had my reservations about them. But this family, ah now I like them. The mom, the dad, the babies. Wonderful. Easy spirited. Fun. So I’m hoping. I’ll hear soon, they have another person to interview.
When I got Zac from school today went straight to my chiropractor’s. I haven’t been there in nine months and it shows. Left feeling a bit heady as my body shifted itself into better alignment. When I haven’t been in in that long it effects me a lot. So this effect was a lot. But it will be for the better. All the pain and fatigue will pass and I will be aligned again. I will be going again on Friday. And likely next week. Got to get the knots and stiffness out.
From there to Zac’s home to fix lunch and then to work. After I was done with work I didn’t have it in me to do a single thing due to the lingering effects of the adjustment/entrainment, so I went to see “Bounty Hunter”, which was different than I thought but still wasn’t bad. There was a line in the movie that I loved. It went something like, “We live our lives being worried about making mistakes. At death we wish we had made more.” What a great thought provoking statement. I have to say that for once in my life this is the way I’m living. Well, I mean, not living. I’ve stopped worrying that I might make a mistake and I’ve moved into the rehelm of risking making them with the business ventures I’m pursuing.
Came home got ready for bed and I just sat on the couch. No TV, no lap top computer, no notes to go over, no checking my to do list. Just sitting. Thinking. Thinking about that line in the movie. Thinking about the issues that I seriously need to heal since yesterday, directly following work, I had another counseling session with my ex and I saw more of myself. Stuff I’m not thrilled about really. Unforgiveness. That was big. Big as the moon. But this time I didn’t cry. Nearly did. But I didn’t. I tend to be a tear fighter. Have been since I was young. That way of being took over and I stayed dry. On the outside. But cried inside. Then bitched my way home in my truck, going over the entire meeting. I can take tears and turn them upside down into anger… Upset with “him”, upset with myself, annoyed at the couch. But after I burned through the bitch, I was much better. I do good to just get things out. Right or wrong, I just need to say ‘em. Even if no one is listening. After I got ‘em out then I could focus more on me. What I had been seeing since the appointment but that had had to wait for a bit, you know, till I was over my “annoyances”. This whole counseling with the ex is painful and draining but it’ll all pay off. I will clear myself of my issues that are blocking me and my life will open in new and difference ways. I’ll be able to take that energy and use it elsewhere. And I am certain that we will relate in a different way. That of peace, understanding, acceptance, and friendship.
Then I thought about my blog and how I haven’t blogged in a couple days and decided I needed to get something out. Chat with you. So here I am, getting it out 
Night, love ya,
Theresa Jane
