From House Wife To Film Maker

After a full day of caring for a set of toddler twin girls I set off to take my walk with Caleb.  While I waited for him on the street in front of his house I put on my white ankle socks and sneakers while I continued to listen to my newest, utterly delightful book on CD: “The [...]

You Tube Update… Youtube music surfing is now, for now at least, my new “thing” to do when I blog…So yes it’s currently going in the background, but more about that in a minute… I really am quite mulit-faceted in many ways.  I’m not one to just settle on one thing.  Some take comfort in [...]

I don’t think I mentioned how the whole counseling thing went this past Tuesday with my ex.  So I’m going to back up and mention the session.  It went extremely well.  The best session yet.  Scott said something that he did throughout the marriage and it made me break down and cry.  It was very [...]

I don’t watch a lot of television.  What I do mostly consists of what I hear while I’m behind my computer monitor and the kids are watching their shows.  Under these conditions I can find my head cranking around the monitors edge and taking in bits and pieces.  For instance, I see lots of bits [...]

I pulled an all nighter last night. Too much I needed to get done for our business to stop. It was 7:45 a.m. when I went into my bedroom to sleep.  My room was cast in a pink hue from the sun filtering through the silky pink curtains. I buried my pajamaed self under the [...]

Frozen Water Fountain So why did mention in my last post that it felt like the Ice Age movie? Well, in the last post I told about a conversation with John.  During it I had mentioned that there was a “crack” in me and that was what triggered it… See, when it came to my [...]

CONTINUED: Honestly I don’t think my step-father processed that by him asking me to call my mother…he was asking me to “fix something that I had done wrong”.  But that’s what was happening.  And that’s exactly the power play I think she had been trying to create.  I’m positive that after I called/!BLAM!med there was [...]

I received a phone call from my brother on Monday around 10.  Here’s the snap shot details: To my surprise my father had gone home from the hospital on Saturday. Sunday night he had fallen.  His leg had gone numb. He laid on the bedroom floor for 15 minutes before my mother got to him [...]

Einstein: “Insanity is doing the same thing over and over again and expecting different results.” For years I’ve pretty much been doing the same thing over and over again with my parents and expecting different results.  !BLAM!ming them was doing something different. By not ever dealing honestly, openly, and calmly with the past and being [...]

What began as a drop, picking up my phone and !BLAM!ming my parents, has spread in ever expanding ripples in wonderful ways. Ways I never would have predicted.  The freedom and healing I’m experiencing has taken me by surprise.