So picture this, there are three ducks.  One was walking, one was resting, and one was paddling her web feet trying to swim for all she was worth.

This was too much, I took my camera and videoed her to show my kids.

The duck walking on the ice walked straight at her looking like, “What are you doing?”  Then he turns and walks the other way.   Then the one resting gets up and the two walk away while she keeps paddling…  Going no where.

I couldn’t help but think…”There’s a message here for me.  I’m on my way to my appointment to deal with my “mother hate” issues and I’ve got a duck demonstrating Einstein’s definition of insanity:

“Insanity is doing the same thing over and over again and expecting different results.”

So today’s message from my duck friends?  STOP DOING THE SAME THING if you hope to get off the “ice”/hate… heal my hate issues…
I’ve been that paddling duck.  It’s time I stop the insanity, be like the other duck… up, walking around, in charge, enjoying life for all it’s got to offer and even leading the other duck.  He was getting some where.   I went to my appointment with that on my mind and I’m glad because the appointment got intense…

The Appointment: For all I was worth I wanted to resist what my couch was trying to help me see.   But thank God I didn’t and I pushed through and as a result I’m coming more out of my “insanity”.  A chunk of what I came to see?  I’ve allowed my mother to control and have so much influence over me that she’s my god.  She possesses me.  She lives through me.   I fear her, I talk about her a lot, I can do things that she does: get cold, shut down, mean, temper…  All things someone does who worships someone or thing.

That was unnerving.  Tasted like vinegar and sent shutters down my spine.  But then I had to admit it’s true.  She’s my god.  This processing dislodged a memory: when I was a kid I used to always sardonically say, “My mother is God himself.”  Well, I took that a little too seriously…

After: I went to one of my all time favorite spots:  my library…  While there I found a book on CD: Dolorus Claiborn by Stephen King.  In all the years I’ve gone there and checked out books out on CD and, always look at the SK choices, I’ve never once saw this.  In the words of my daughter, “That’s crazy!”
So… I mean, really…
Did I have a choice about taking it out?  No!  I know you remember that it was only days ago that the movie version cracked me wide open showing me my hate for my mother. Click here for that post.
So of course I immediately popped it in when I got to my truck, I’ve got to see why this “coincidence” happened.  Isn’t life totally cool???
I’ll keep you posted….

Later: we had a terrific business meeting.  Exciting things to come is all I can say… 

Night, love ya,
Theresa Jane
-three hours later when I return home.  That duck was still paddling… four or five feet away from where she started and now she was moving in a circle…insanity…a reinforcement, keep pressing forward to “do different” or you’ll stay on “your ice”…made me shiver
Here’s my ducks…

If you get a kick out of them tell your friends to go to our channel: http://www.youtube.com/JohnSolomonSandridge and view them, who knows maybe they’ll go viral?!  Boy wouldn’t that be great for our business?

About a week or two ago John1 became burdened with what he was seeing reported in the news over the last few weeks and just couldn’t shake it:  the horrors being committed by parents against their own children.  Shanyia Davis being one–the five year old whose mother sold her as a sex slave.  She was raped, murdered, and her body thrown on the side of the road.  He was so troubled that he made a video for her and is working on more.

As he formulated and created the video he also created our “newset addition”.  Our new “theme” if you will: “BLAMe Your Parents”.  (You say BLAMe-blam) Shanyia is dead because of her mother.  There’s a 15 year old who is dead because his father shot him in the head…

So how does this “go along” with the Red Book and Cotton?

• The book takes place during American Slavery and is the true story about the life of an African American slave named Nimrod, who’s John1′s* great, great grandfather.
• Parents are committing out and and out horrors against their children: selling them as sex slaves and treating them like slaves by shooting them in the head…
• We believe the problems the youth are having today their, addictions and bad habits– alcoholism, drug addictions, overeating, pornography–are a form of slavery.  Rather than enslavement it’s a mental thing, an In-Slave-Mental** issue–a term John1 coined.  This “slavery” their experiencing comes from their parents addictions/slavery which is a residue of American slavery from the 1700′s.  Red Book and Cotton offers a solution to the problems, which is True Freedom.

Starting on Thanksgiving we uploaded the video for Shanyia Davis to YouTube and since, two more have been added.  The other two videos are from the 40 that I’ve been telling you John1′s been working on–the “book videos”–for the book.

I’ve embedded Shanyia’s Video here.  It’s called “Shanyia’s Cry”.  It’s a brand new concept, one that again was totally John1′s idea and creation.  I haven’t been able to snatch a shred of creative credit here.    The man is amazingly creative.

Be sure you follow the directions at the beginning.  I’ll post one of the other two videos tomorrow, but if you don’t want to wait, and I wouldn’t blame you click here.

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Night, Love ya,
Theresa Jane
-who went to see Blind Side again and needed every tissue she brought just in case.  This is such a great movie!  Go see it!
–*John1 is: John Solomon Sandridge.  My business partner and author of Red Book and Cotton.  If you’re a new friend to my blog you need to know this.  I also have a son named John, who also works with us and it just became too confusing to always have to note who was who